Thursday, December 29, 2011

“I Open at the Close”

Music: Nico Stai (Dead Pony, Miss Friday Album)

"be ready to open up to all possibilities"

“I open at the close”: Yes I am quoting Harry Potter on this one. You know that phrase left by Professor Dumbledore on the snitch for Harry. Well yeah, you know the drill on this if you grew up with Harry, Hermoine and Ron but in case you didn’t see the movie (and you hadn’t read the book) I understand. Tho I urge you to google it just so you would know what it means. This post is not about Harry Potter by the way, just the quote. Well then, moving on.

This would be my year ender blog post, thus the phrase/quote. I am changing the meaning, rather than having death in mind, it simply means the end of something and a beginning of another. Yes, you got it: New Years!

I am not actually big on plans; I used to believe that planning usually lead to disappointments - then came bucket list. Plans make you raise your expectations and the dreaded disappointment knocks on your door. You would argue that the statement above is coming from a pessimist, no my friends, it came from a realist. I am not talking about work here that is a whole lot of a different angle. Rather than making full blown plans down to the very last step and period for what your year would be – social/personal life aspect in case you did not pick it up first on, just lower it down a notch to a bucket list. For me, planning is different from goal setting. I set my goals, and then take all possible strategies to make it work. Ah but this would be a different argument all together so I would stop right here.

If some of you are not familiar with what a bucket list is, it is just a simple wish-list you want to achieve for the months, or years to come. I started this back in 2001, on my first year in university. I really did not know what I needed to do with life, 10 years later at the end of 2011 the long term things on the list have somewhat been achieved. I just need 2 more on that top 5 to cross out, which would still take a while. The short ones are just for material gain and they have been achieved even though it took few months or a year.

So that was a long explanation and would have probably bored you out, but let us get on with what I really mean with “I open at the close”. Simple, 2011 is ending and 2012 is coming. This year has been a rollercoaster ride, as it is should be. Life in plateau is boring, so take the rollercoaster ride full on. Surprises, a lot of laughter, a lot of gratitude, adventure, blessings as well as heartache, you name it 2011 gave them all to me. But as the year closes, it would not be difficult to once again to open up to all possibilities 2012 can give you. It would not hurt to update your bucket list, make goals and raise your hopes up once again even if 2011 was dreadful to you – if you think that way. But I urge you to remember the simple moments that have given your simple joys in life, put them together, I am pretty sure at the end of the year, you will have a smile painted on your face or maybe even laughing so hard while you are at it.

Welcome the year 2012 full on. Be optimistic as well as a realist. Open up to new beginnings at the close.

Happy New Year guys – to you who even read these simple ramblings.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Sustainable Happiness

Music: Florence + the Machine

 "simple moments, random gatherings, series outburst of laughter is my definition of sustainable happiness." - A.C.M.

"where good awesome friends dine"

12.27.2011: Tho it was a quick dinner because I did not realize we were going home as I was busy "tweeting" and checking if I have a "flower" (haha inside joke), it was a ton of fun! There is never a dull moment with these guys, I swear. 

"never dull, always fun, no fuss, no mess, just happiness"
Glad to have spent the chow down moments and great laughter with you guys! (Ate Rica, Shobe, Roan, Caca, Kate, Gem, Aaron, Jomay, Becka, Gellie, Mariel, Ate Chona, Ate Norie and Ate Miel). I will see you Ann next time! 

Thanks for the awesome gifts! Tho I still want to share my unknown "best before" M&M's orange chocolate to those I was in the car with! hahaha.

See you again soon!! 

Happy New Year!!

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Friday, November 18, 2011

"In Time"

Music: Coldplay (shuffled album)

Movie poster - "In time"

Alright, it has been quite long since I posted an entry here, while most post weekly, I usually post when I have something in mind or I just wanted to raise my emotions whether it elicits – joy, sadness, eagerness, energy, or whatever it is common people like us experience every day. With that, here is what I owe in this blog (not that a lot bothers to read anyway haha).

Prior to heading to Baguio early Thursday, I watched “In Time” late Wednesday night – imagine the sacrifice of time late movie night and early call time for Baguio.  I do not normally talk about movies here that much – but then again this is a blog about anything random – thought wise – so might as well. 

I am a self-confessed movie buff – I can watch anything – yes even Horror movies (but I pledged that I wouldn’t pay any dime scaring myself haha – just at home in broad daylight). I never really post anything about movies here so this may be the first.

I heard a few things about “In Time” – that it was okay but the lines are cheesy, it was so-so but the concept was awesome so on and so forth. Most of the times, I do not really believe in movie reviews or opinions of others about music and or movies and this movie was not an exception. Others tend to discourage me from watching a certain movie but lets face it, we have our own opinions and mine is just as good as yours – we may only differ in how we explain it or in our perspective – which is the magic of using our intelligence really.

What really draws me from enjoying and re-watching movies are these:

1.  Great soundtrack – believe me I have a vast collection of different soundtrack (cheesy as it may be – it started with Nothing Hill when I was just 14)

2.  Concept of the movie – some think I am weird of understanding of enjoying movies with different concepts – I enjoy indie movies on the side too because they have awesome soundtrack as well. Great package! 

3.   Actors – lets be honest here, we watch movies because of the people that are in it – this is mostly the deciding factor of everyone when choosing a movie

4.  Script – a movie lingers in your mind when the script just matches the concept and I cant explain it further but that – use your imagination on this

5.  Trailers – really, they do make me want to watch – this is the synopsis in the shortest video (soundtrack included) – if trailers are awesome, you have my attention.

I actually would have more but – those are my top reasons. Anyway to cut the long introduction short here we go.

There is 1440 minutes in a day (84,400 seconds if you still want to know), imagine a world where time is the currency and that you wouldn’t want to waste any second of it because it is valuable. That is what “In Time” allows you ponder on. Right now we work for those dead presidents – to pay the bills, rent, food, tuition, loans among other things that we are so engrossed in. we spend so much time trying to earn a buck and setting aside important things because we need money.

In the world where everyone is busy for this piece of paper, we neglect how valuable time is – how important 1 second is in life. That with one second, something could happen in a snap, we could lose something or gain it. Most of us neglect time – yes I am one of them, I am not extraordinary in managing my time.

In the movie, they work to get paid of minutes or day or hours, they loan for a month, a day, an hour everything revolves around the concept of how important time is. The rich get centuries in their life – the poor die if you do not have any means of earning time – which in current world still happens.

Looking at the movie in terms of social stratification – it does not differ from the way it is now today. The rich live extravagantly, can have anything, can enjoy anything good but the difference today and in this movie – the rich in the movie take their time – do things slowly enjoy the moments they have – because they have all the time in the world, while in reality the rich spend so much time building their empire to make sure their money is tripled or more sometimes neglecting the fact that there are other people important in their life (I am not saying that I know everything because I am not rich just based on observation).

Then we have the poor – in the movie everyone sleep less because they need to work to earn another day, to eat, to pay off loans spends hours to earn time. Then as always crime rate is high because you walk around with hours in your arm. In reality, majority of the poor spend their time doing nothing because there is not much work around – it is hard to find work. Although the same concept of living day to day is the same with the movie but the poor seems to have all the time in the world in our real time.

You may imagine, that the people like the Time Keeper are also watching the world economy right now, they make sure which country stays poor and which country stays rich because if equality exists in terms of buying power. There is not much of anything to produce really. Think of it as the survival of the fittest (which in the movie and in real world is very much applicable).

No, I am not going into the details of conspiracy this, conspiracy that – I will leave it up to you to think – to provoke yourselves to ask and ponder.

Anyway, spending so much time traveling to Baguio yesterday made me think of how much time I have really spent in enjoying it.  I tend to work too hard to make sure that I earn extra bucks but sacrificing the time for family and friends. I haven’t really seen my sister and nephew for a full week but we live in the same house, because they sleep early – I arrive late, they leave early – I leave late.

Now, slowly I am going to try making sure that there is balance. I hope you do too.

The most important time is now, and tomorrow is today. Balance it out – enjoy and spend it wisely.

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Saturday, November 5, 2011

What the heart wants and what the brain says I need…..

Music: Coldplay (Shuffled Albums)

This way.....

If you have been reading through my blog (if you have thank you very much for the time and interest), you would know that I always have this urge to do research or community service. You see, I never intended to take up Sociology. No, Sociology is not Psychology, albeit they are of the same branch of science, they are totally different in a lot of approaches but of course there would be inevitable cross overs. I would love to explain further, but I would like to ask you to be a curious a little and find the differences of the two, believe me it’ll give you an insight or two. That gives you another opportunity to be smarter. =)

Anyway, filling up that college application was not entirely a breeze for me for the second choice (campus and degree for UPCAT). I was really dead set on getting in the Architecture department of any school. I applied for only three schools – that would be UST, UP and our local state university (in the province) Bicol University. My first choice was Architecture for all the three schools and never really minded the second choice. To cut the story short, I got admitted to two schools, UP and Bicol University (for Architecture). I got in my second campus choice, UP Los Banos - passed Sociology and got waitlisted for Food Technology. I never really knew much about Sociology like most people. I only associated it with Psychology like most people again. Only difference was, I tried to make sense of the word and tricked my mind that socio means society (which was actually right haha). I chose to study in Los Banos and dropped the dream of becoming an Architect in the province – for a better educational experience.

At first, I was just planning on using the course as a stepping-stone in the hopes of getting in the Architecture program in Diliman, but I fell in love with the place – Los Banos. I told my mom and siblings that I would continue studying Sociology not really knowing what is to become of me after college.

I did not only fell in love with the place to be honest but with Sociology as well. I had the chance to go out to different communities to conduct studies, surveys and developmental proposals, which allowed me to be more open to a lot of possibilities. Having a maximum of 21 units, which would mean 7 subjects for a semester and would also mean 7 research papers (or more). The love for writing – which I already did have back in high school, though no one really knew much about it, was rekindled.

In Sociology, I had the chance to study comedy bars, slums, farmers, group of students, a community, an ethnic tribe, a religion among other aspects in the society and it was really fun and fulfilling. At age 16, because of what the world of Sociology has given me, made me aim for any United Nations work related activities or volunteer program – which if you have been reading though this blog, is still a lifelong dream or could even be a dream for the next lifetime haha.

Watching documentaries, research and development activities, reading articles and even watching TV for any research and development related news make me think over and over and day dream that one day my chance would come.

You see, like what the title of this blog states, my heart really is for research and development but like anyone who has needs and dreams of a better life, sadly that dream is gathering dust. If you do not get grants, do not belong to a high paying community development organizations (mind you, there are really a few), life would be quiet hard. So usually my brain states the obvious, that you need to be in a world that would provide an income that could help you sustain the basic needs in life (okay include the family’s as well). It is really hard to compete with that. I love that there are researchers out there that stick to what is given to them and continue with the amazing work they do, but I have known a few that have actually left that world in the hopes of preparing for their future because really, what you would earn there is meager (for most unless you are a high ranking official).

Most of us, graduates of Sociology either go into law school, in the corporate world (getting sucked up by corporatism), had masters in business, have a completely different job and sadly only a few who stick to the principle. Like most as well, when you say you have a degree in Sociology, they would ask what it is – and it is quiet tiring sometimes to keep explaining the same thing over and over.

I just really wish that I could still do research and write and provide solutions on the side-lines because when I see documentaries, there is this hope in me that flickers, my heart leaps so to speak that I could do something like that, that I could help provide solutions or even options on how to improve a community.

Probably one day, when I have completely fulfilled Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs – it would come for sure. “Self Actualization” is really important and this, the dream of joining a group to do research and development would always be that one piece of the puzzle.

On the side note: Let us not keep sitting on the sidelines, there are many ways to take the stage of life and there are always roles to play. One of which is the one thing you most like to do that can make you feel so complete and infinite even for a moment. 

This is the reason why you never really have to drink three cups of coffee on a Friday with a long weekend creeping in.

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Thursday, October 20, 2011

F2's at 7 x Quadruple Celebration

Music: Athlete's Albums (Shuffled)

credit to Anne Curtis

Usually, I do not get to any F2’s gatherings on time when it is on a work day/week/night as I always have to finish work before leaving the office, so October 17, 2011 was not an exception to the usual haha – but I just had to be there.

It was a special day for all of us F2’s that Monday (Oct. 17, 2011) as we celebrated four important milestones: 1. Our 7th year (how time flies) 2. Anne’s 14th year anniversary in show business 3. No Other Woman – Number 1 top grossing Filipino film of all time and lastly 4. Annebisyosa’s Gold record award. It was only a small-low key gathering that day, packed with a block screening and simple dinner with Anne and few of the F2’s.

That night was full of smiles, gratitude, proud moments and perpetual bliss for everything that Anne has accomplished in her 14th year in showbiz. People may call fANNEtastic fANNEatics (f2’s) a fans club, and yes technically it is – but I call us a family. The friendship that is built within this group, I am sure of, will last a lifetime and everyone would be there for one another even if its not “Anne Curtis related”.

No words can express how proud we are of Anne. “We are so proud of you” sounds like an understatement of the actual feeling that we all have of everything that she has accomplished. Writing this and explaining it is even harder than I thought just to get to my point. Haha. With everything that she has accomplished, she remains grounded and keeps her roots of humility, kindness, spontaneity, sense gratitude, always game, and whatever good traits you can insert in this long list.

The gathering last Monday night wouldn’t be successful without the helpful hands and hearts of the people behind it. We are truly grateful of the happiness you have bestowed upon us all.

"I hope you don't mind......." haha 7th Year

To Anne, congratulations Miss Brighter Than Sunshine. I will always have that nickname for you. It is always a pleasure to see you in person too! haha. Chos na chos lang sa dedication. You know we will always be here to support you because you are more than worth it! Much love. <3

To my F2’s family. Love you guys to infinity and beyond. Including all the craziness and inside jokes and everything else! Haha Enjoy the video. Sorry for those who are exposed in here. Hahaha (not a lot would read this blog post anyway =p)

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Sunday, September 18, 2011

The Icons of Reinvention. The UP Pep Squad.

Music: Nico Stai (Dead Pony + Miss Friday)

Once a year my heart is filled to the brim with so much pride, so much joy and so much school spirit. I am not saying that I only feel this 1-day out of the total 365 days, I will forever be proud of having a Maroon blood running through my veins. But there is this one day of the year that the UP Community, current students and alumni alike gather in one place. No this is not on graduation day, rather during the most coveted cheer dance competition of all the top 8 universities in the country. 
Credit to the uploader. No infringement intended.

For another video which is clearer I think. I was having trouble loading this:

The day I learned about the competition, I promised my self that I would never sit this one out. I lined up in Araneta for hours September of year 2001, on the day of the competition with my college friends then trying to score a Gen Ad ticket (because that is the only ticket we could afford haha). I never really had that much pride during my first semester in UP mind you, but that day when I saw how much pride the UP Community has, so united, so proud of the squad, I promised myself I would never miss this one (either on tv or live).

There were moments of slight disappointments, as usual, with the results as I know how hard they work every day for that few minutes of their lives.

Since 2001, I have been watching it. Back in 2009, my friends and I had to camp out at Araneta for 13 hours just for us to get tickets. This was my way of keeping the promise. That promise was slightly cracked coz I missed out last year. It was right smack on the day of my arrival from the province. Imagine my frustration on the plane, on the tarmac waiting for my luggage because my friends who were watching live kept texting and calling me that we had won. All I could say was “fuck” and “shit” and “why the hell am I missing this shit out?” hahaha

This year, my friend (from grad school) who is also really a die-hard UP Pep Squad supporter and a through and through Maroon blooded individual, got us Patron seats – which was mind awesomely blowing! My heart somewhat skipped a beat or two during that 6 minute routine and all I could feel was so much pride. I was so proud that I belonged to this community, that I am one of the die-hard supporters of this extraordinary squad. The crowd roared, before-during-after their performance. Even other schools did cheer for us. Imagine that.

On the side note: through the years of watching the competition, I must say the schools competing had improved tremendously. Look at the De La Salle Squad placing 1st. I knew it after they performed that they would be on the top 3. Their routine was clean, precise and with that so-called “surprising performance”. UST only placed fourth that was very far from last year. And still with the stunts – FEU placed second.

I am rumbling here so I must stop. CONGRATULATIONS UP PEP SQUAD UAAP Cheerdance Competition Champions!!!! You are indeed the Icons of Reinvention. It is not the number of wins that counts; it is what you bring on the mat. U-NI-BER-SI-DAD NG PILIPINAS!!!!!

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Monday, September 12, 2011

The Quarter-Life.

Music: Band of Horses (shuffled)

this is me during my trip to Pagudpud. Seemingly trying to find my way.

I must admit, for weeks now I have been denying the fact that I am going through something. That I keep telling myself, this is nothing and it would go away. As M. Scott Peck would say (not in verbatim of course) problems do not really go away, they stick to you and the longer you deny the existence the bigger it would be. Indeed, I have a problem. The problem of using my time to the fullest, the problem of changing my attitude towards a lot of things, the problem that it is a struggle to accept life is difficult – because indeed it is. We just have to learn how so sail through it by embracing suffering, pain and eventually success.

At age 16, I thought I was dead set to what I need to do after I finish university. I wrote down the 5 things that I needed to accomplish at certain age. Be a lawyer, own a house, own a car, travel and maybe marry at this age. But 11 years later, at age 27, none of them accomplished. I am not a lawyer (though I am almost done with my masters), I do not own a house, I do not own a car and I am working and living pay check to pay check.

I stay wide awake at night telling myself it is the only time I have to catch up on things either online or on television. But that is really not the case, I stay up late thinking where am I going – as almost all of us at this age would ask. What am I doing with life and what have I accomplished? Truly I am one of those people who would say, “if only google has the answer to my life questions, it wouldn’t be that much difficult to sail through it.”

I try to put psychology in every thing I do just to answer those simple questions that seem to be very difficult to answer. But still nothing would suffice or even give me that small drop of satisfaction. I remember a short story by Leo Tolstoy (yes, surprisingly he has a short story if you didn’t know that since his Ana Karenina was really famous), its “Three questions” where in the King had these in mind:

“That if he always knew the right time to begin everything; if he knew who were the right people to listen to, and whom to avoid; and, above all, if he always knew what was the most important thing to do, he would never fail in anything he might undertake.”

He asked everyone who could provide the answer to him but nothing would suffice, and then came to know about a hermit who could possibly provide the answer in an instant but took him a long day’s work and an incident in getting the answer to get the right ones. The hermit answered him:

"If you had not pitied my weakness yesterday, and had not dug those beds for me, but had gone your way, that man would have attacked you, and you would have repented of not having stayed with me. So the most important time was when you were digging the beds; and I was the most important man; and to do me good was your most important business. Afterwards when that man ran to us, the most important time was when you were attending to him, for if you had not bound up his wounds he would have died without having made peace with you. So he was the most important man, and what you did for him was your most important business. Remember then: there is only one time that is important-- Now! It is the most important time because it is the only time when we have any power. The most necessary man is he with whom you are, for no man knows whether he will ever have dealings with any one else: and the most important affair is, to do him good, because for that purpose alone was man sent into this life!"

We are that King, those who ask those three questions. I am that King and sometimes I forget the wisdom this short story had shared. I am but with faults I know, I am with problems and I search for answers but only to remind me at the end of the day that my answers were right in front of me. I just did not take enough time to look, to listen and to understand.

I am not really aiming of getting somewhere with this post as I am a bit lost in transition. I am still trying to remind myself that the important time is NOW. I guess what M. Scott Peck said was right – we have to delay our gratification in order to fully enjoy what life has to offer. We have to go through our struggle and pain to fully appreciate joy and happiness. Life is indeed difficult but it is never always like that, it is a process that if we are willing to endure, challenge, or pursuit – we end up being happy.

My proclamation that I must be going through a quarter life crisis must be correct. As I am really still asking why am I here and what do I need to do to make life even better? There are so many things that I want to do but I cannot do it because honestly, I am that afraid. I fear failure, I fear disappointments I actually fear sacrificing my comforts. So many clichés may be used to make me feel better, so many people may say things I want to hear but the only person who can convince me is ME.

As I end this, I still do not know whether I feel alright. Whether I can ease my mind and tell myself to stop thinking too much. I guess we all go through this. At some point in life or another.

Don’t worry. You are not alone. You are normal, normal as you can be when you experience these things. At least we are asking. I guess we can all call this a quarter life question and answer portion. Not as a crisis. Never a crisis but a check and balance of life we lead.

This is part of growing.

(Still not aiming of make a lot of sense here but if I did. Thank you for thinking that way.)

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Monday, August 15, 2011

Only A Few Seconds To Die

Jostein Gaarder said in his book Maya (I read it back in my sophomore year in college one hot summer class afternoon) "It takes billions of years to create a human being . And only a few second to die." I totally agree...... so why waste every moments we all have. Let us all savor the main course called life!

Enjoy your little moments, they are the spices in your wonderful life. 

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Friday, August 12, 2011

The Wonder Years

Entry Date: August 12, 2011

Music: "Streetlight" and "I Missed You" - Joshua Radin

Winnie Cooper and Kevin Arnold

I had the hugest crush on "Kevin Arnold" Fred Savage in real life.... when I was really really young (hooooray for the 90's kids!!!) He was my ideal boy then. hahaha. I breathed this show during my years of swooning. I have the DVD's given by my friend in Hawaii too.

To reminisce here are random quotes from my favorite "The Wonder Years":

"All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. we dance to a song of heartbreak and hope.... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us."

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”

“I guess sometimes the ground can shift between your feet. Sometimes your footing slips. You stumble. And sometimes you grab what's close to you and hold on as tight as you can.”

“Over the course of the average lifetime
you meet a lot of people. Some of them
stick with you through thick and thin.
Some weave their way through your life
and disappear forever. But once in a
while someone comes along who earns a
permanent place in your heart”

“Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers; the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul.” 

“Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go.” 

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Thursday, August 11, 2011

Pangarap Ko Noon

Music: Joshua Radin (shuffled)

to live a dream for a day is better than not living it at all

When I was a tad bit younger, I wanted to be a lot of “somebody”.  I wanted to be a scientist, a film maker & writer, an architect, a musician, a radio jock, a composer, a visual artist (comics, special effects etc.), a photographer, a national badminton player heck, even a hiphop dancer.

All that I wanted to become revolved much around the arts and a little bit of sports and science. I wanted to be a scientist because of Doogie Howser M.D. haha my sister and I used to watch it way back when. He was really cute and the stories were awesome. I do not remember much about it because I was way too young for it. I asked mom to buy me a test tube set (the real ones) and every material there is for a laboratory. She managed to compensate me with a Barbie doll telling me that the things I wanted were dangerous hahaha. Then I wanted to become a film maker & writer, yes you may have guessed it it’s because of another TV Show this time, The Wonder Years. I was so hooked on this show that I had to struggle for a tv viewing spot and battle with my grandma with her Esperanza (yes, that Judy Ann Santos teleserye). I had this huge crush with Fred Savage, that boyish smile and eyebrows when he gets this sarcastic look I just loved him from the moment I saw him hahaha. Yes he was my first ever celebrity crush when I was in my early elementary years (not far from the day when the butterfly cut blonde hair boys like Leo, Nick and Devon took over).  I wanted to write the same stories like that of the Wonder Years.

Then I grew a little older, I was pushed to draw for my own homework. I did not have anyone to help me with it. Everyone was busy, my older siblings were in High School, and mom was working in another country since I was a year old. So I had to do things on my own. To cope, I started scribbling until the time I reached the ease in drawing certain images. I was fond of cartoons and I would put up my drawings on my walls. My father (when I was vacationing in Manila) uttered “we may have an architect in the family” out of wanting to prove that I will be one someday (there’s angst there deep beneath the I WILL BE ONE SOMEDAY – but that’s a different story), I took an entrance test in the number 1 state university in our province and I passed top 15 of all examinees in the region (hooarraaah not that I wanted to boast or anything =p).

Time passed and I was exposed to so many things in high school, different kinds of music and the arts. I got hooked into sports (badminton) and even reached the national games (Palarong Pambasa) – again that’s another story haha. I danced as well in class but did not pursue it as I left it to my friends because I did not want to perform in front of a huge crowd (yes, thats the hip-hop dancer dream).

The list of these events goes on but I am not a radio jock, neither a film maker, nor visual artist, nor architect, nor dancer, nor musician nor a part of national team. But I have become a little bit of everything. I live the dream of becoming a radio jock when friends are in need of songs to listen to, I played in the national games, I handle the magazine publication in the office (visual/writer whatnot), I handle the video presentation in our department (coz no one would take a shot at it hahaha), musician in the confines of my room and the bathroom (because that’s how far I can take this so called bathroom talent hahaha) and photographer in my own little world.

What I am driving at here is that in life, we want to be a lot of somebody from the day we started imagining things when we were kids up until this very moment. I may have taken a different route in reaching my dreams, but still I am contented with what I have achieved in my years of existence. We can be whoever we want to be if we take a shot at it right? We can do anything we want if we put our hearts into it. No one has the right to tell you, you are not this and that because they do not know your capabilities.

Be whoever you want to be, live out your fantasies. You may have taken the road less traveled by in this life adventure, but all road leads to our final destination. It is how we take each curves, turns, highways, cross-roads, never solely on who would lead you there.  

Living your dream for a day is better than not living it at all.

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Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The Space Between…..

Music: Matthew Perryman Jones (shuffled)

i love this picture of me taken by a 9 year old boy named Julio (vampires, zombies, and whatnot) even if I look like the best dork in town. haha

I haven’t written for sometime now, it feels like ages even if it was just a month or so. Full length stories or thoughts don’t come easy really. But things start from a single thought and you play around it to create the so called body. I have been back and forth with so many things that I tend to forget to enjoy the simple things in life.

A few days ago, I was having dinner with a friend after a long day at work. We would actually just rant about things that had happened, but this time it was different. I wanted to enjoy the food (luckily I love the music played in the background at the resto) so I asked for a quiet time. Rarely that it would happen and it felt good. Everything has been in fast forward the past few months. It seemed like I was in this roller coaster ride, only there were no stops. Unlimited rides so to speak. I needed to have a break from it all and what better way to do it? Eat silently with good music on.

The space between our daily undertakings is important. People tend to say they are busy, but they never really do realize that they are actually busy thinking they are busy. We are given little moments in life to enjoy, take a breather and chill.  But only a few realize it, and I am one of the many who only realizes it once in a blue moon.  Balance in everything is key, I am not a master of this balancing act but I am trying – as hard as it is, my God I am trying.

I love these lines from Dave Matthews Band:

“The space between the tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The space between the wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain”

-          Dave Matthews Band

Everything may be in fast forward in your life, but as your life soundtrack plays, there is always an option to press pause, stop or even rewind then play again. Choice. 

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Monday, July 18, 2011

The Jasmine Experience

Music: Elliott Smith

copyright: robiannrocks

Blessed with the Ojales and Curtis-Smith genes, no wonder this young lady would make people’s heads turn and make you take that second, third and even the bordering stare look. At the tender age of 17, she is making waves of her own and making a name for her self in the showbiz industry. You should not be surprised if her star shines so bright and be among the top ranks of the perfectly effective endorsers, actresses, hosts and entertainers (she dances gracefully and with the innately hidden talent in singing). She need not have a longer introduction – meet Jasmine Curtis-Smith.

I have been following Jazzy on twitter since 2009 along with just a few hundreds of us. From the humble few hundreds to a whooping nearly 300k (as of this writing), I feel so proud and ecstatic for what she has achieved in this little adventure she is on. I guess we can consider her lucky to have been given such an opportunity to live in the best of both worlds – being able to do what she loves (in showbiz) during school breaks and being a normal teenager whenever she goes back to Australia. 

"First Jasters' Day Trailer"

We have nothing but grand praises for Jasmine; she is such a great ball of fire every time you meet her. Last July 16, 2011 that fact had a cherry on top – she woke up early for the MVP Run at MOA, went straight to “Hey It’s Saberday!” rehearsals then went on live for the same show at lunch time met her adorable Jasters every chance she gets (during gaps) then rushed to Novaliches for Wil Time Big time opening prod number & hosting then rushed back to Broadway Centrum to tape another “Hey! It’s Saberday!” episode which ended at the wee hours of the morning (just writing that I got tired haha what more of the actual). I call her Ms. Freshness Engery-nator because no matter how tiring/hectic her day is, she still has all the energy in the world while looking so fresh. 

 "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing"

Yes she is very gorgeous (just like her big sister Anne Curtis) that’s a given fact, but as pretty as she is, she also has this very generous, accommodating and kind heart. She makes it to a point that she greats everyone that says hello, pose for a picture (sometimes marshals try to tell the fans off but she would oblige), and have a little chit-chat with them. July 16, 2011 was the first official Jasters’ Day on the set of ‘Hey It’s Saberday!” and that generous –accommodating-kind heart radiated the whole time she was with the Jasters making it a great “Jasmine Experience”.

No doubt, she will be the next big thing in the showbiz industry. I wish her all the success the world can offer her but I still hope (on the side) she is given the opportunity to continue experiencing the best of both her worlds – that is still being in showbiz & pursuing her university education (a few years shy from now).

*insert*: Jazzy turning 17 last April 6, 2011 at the set of "Ang Utol Kong Hoodlum"

Until we meet again, babycurt.

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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

To the Island....... To the Cove!!!

Music: Death Cab for Cutie (shuffled)

Nagsasa Cove

One of the manager’s in the IT department is leaving the company for Singapore by the end of the month, with that he decided to spend time with the usual crazy bunch who go trekking every weekend (once or twice a month). He dubbed the get away “Huling Hirit sa Tag-init” which actually fitted very well since PAG-ASA is somewhat declaring that by Friday this week (May 27, 2011) Summer has ended.

  • Budget: 1500-2000 per person (depends on the days you will stay and number of people you’re with)
  • Pasay-San Antonio Zambales (about 4 hour bus ride) – P280 one way (Victory Liner)
  • Trike: - 30 pesos per person, one way (3 persons per trike)
  • Food budget for 2 days: P500 (if you are a big group this would cover breakfast, lunch and dinner 1st day and breakfast and lunch second day)
  • Boat ride: P500-P600 pesos (for two days)

Our group of 24 left Manila at 11:45pm and arrived at San Atonio, Zambales around 3:30AM. We waited for the trikes who would drop us off at Pandaquit (our jump off). The ride took us about 20 mins to reach the resort (Marvin Bangkero Resort) where our boat will pick us up. It was really early in the morning so a few decided to go the market after an hour to buy our food for two days and I, who loves sleeping continued my snooze at the nipa hut until 7am - it felt awesome haha.

Pandaquit, San Antonio Zambales

Pandaquit, San Antonio Zambales

We were set to visit two islands. We first head to Capones Island which took us about 30 mins boat ride from jump off to the spot. This island is unkept, not as popular compared to Anawangin Cove and Nagsasa Cove. People stay there for a short while for the serenity and just swimming. Place is great tho. 

Capones Island
awesome rock formations at Capones Island
great opportunity for a profile pic hahaha
my friends and I under that rock formation, hiding from the sun

While we were on this island we decided to visit the abandoned Lighthouse which seemed light-years away from where we camped for the afternoon, some of the people I was with were pissed because the shores were so rocky that it was hard to walk. One even decided to swim from the Philippine Navy camp to where were supposed to hike to reach the light house (haha). We trekked from the shores to the light house for about 15 mins. It was a bit steep but there was a rope for difficult areas. Too bad the lighthouse was abandoned, the structure is dilapidated, vandals on the walls, solar panels are not working (good thing not stolen), roofs had collapsed and staircase is wobbly. I hope this lighthouse gets the attention it actually needs (it’s similar to Bojeador Lighthouse – I guess all Spanish era built lighthouses have the same design). If you are looking for a place to seek peace and stillness, this is definitely the place.

we had to pass by these and it was really itchy

our trek to the light house

that is actually the Philippine Navy camp
 i love sights like this
one of the rock formations on our way

this way to the light house

Capones Island Lighthouse

Capones Island lighthouse

Capones Island lighthouse
We left Capones Island about 1pm as we had a schedule to follow. Instead of heading to Anawangin Cove, the group decided that it is best to head to Nagsasa Cove instead. Anawangin nowadays are crowded and the group I was with said that the beach in Nagsasa is better because the sand is fine (tho not white but at least no rocks). We reached Nagsasa Cove after about 1 and half hour boat ride (it felt like we were very still because of the distance). Entrance to Nagsasa Cove is 100 per person overnight.

early in the morning at Nagsasa Cove

waiting for our boat

life doesnt get any better than this

The cove was great, few campers were there compared to Anawangin they say. The bad thing that Saturday was that the breeze was as hot as it could possibly be. Our tents were so humid that instead of us four sleeping there, I had to sleep on the hammock I bought earlier that day because I couldn’t take the heat (thus the amazing fever and cough/colds I am having right now haha). My friends were so proud telling us that there’s falls near the camp site, that we could walk about 15 mins to get there, what greeted us was a stream hahaha. This was due to the very hot weather and it dried up a bit. There was another but it would be about 1 hour trekking which the others did not want to take due to the heat, so we ended up swimming on the beach instead.

heading to the dried out "falls" which was actually a stream haha

the stream haha

this was the consolation, cold water which was deep enough to swim in

end of the stream

sunday morning at Nagsasa Cove

Sunday afternoon gave us a bit of a worry. We packed up lunch time but one boat which was supposed to pick us up by 2pm did not arrive (it got stalled in another island) and the other arrived at 3pm – who waited for the other boat for an hour before deciding to find out what happened. We reached the jump off about 5:30pm which was about 3 hours off our schedule. The boat had to come back to pick 10 of our friends left at the cove. It was a rainy afternoon and the second group was telling us that the waves were big and they saw a shark swimming near Anawangin Cove (hahah definitely a good idea to choose Nagsasa Cover over it).

It took us a while to decide to just head to Olongapo and get our tickets at the Victory Liner terminal instead of waiting for the bus coming from Iba Zambales. We got the last trip to Cubao by 9pm (San Atonio to Olonggapo Zambales was about 45 mins bus ride which cost us 40 pesos a piece).

It was difficult to find the bus going back to Manila from San Antonio, Zambales so I really am suggesting that you take the ordinary bus heading to Olongapo as early as you could. We arrived in Cubao around 12:30am which was a great challenge to everyone since we all have to be at work 9am the latest. End result, most were late and some were absent. Lucky for me, I am used to long rides so I was able to come to work before 9am (or else my boss will kill me haha).

All in all, the weekend ended great. at least the government of Zambales is doing something about their mountains, they have a program for the natives (Aetas) to serve as guide in order to lure them away from Kaingin. The coves are privately owned I was told, which made me think that, it was supposed to be owned by the natives (Aetas) because its their mountains, they live there. But because of political and all other protection issue, they serve as laborers for these “private people”. I have first hand experience from the Aetas in Pampanga and most of their stories are the same that’s why they choose to live further away from the lowlands. Anyway, this is another issue (forgive my Sociologist self, its coming out uninvited hahaha).

With it, I leave you with my favorite time of the day.......

sunset at Pandaquit, Zambales

sunset at Pandaquit, Zambales

I hope you guys get to visit these islands of Zambales. Grab your chance before it gets too crowded.

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