Monday, August 15, 2011

Only A Few Seconds To Die

Jostein Gaarder said in his book Maya (I read it back in my sophomore year in college one hot summer class afternoon) "It takes billions of years to create a human being . And only a few second to die." I totally agree...... so why waste every moments we all have. Let us all savor the main course called life!

Enjoy your little moments, they are the spices in your wonderful life. 

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Friday, August 12, 2011

The Wonder Years

Entry Date: August 12, 2011

Music: "Streetlight" and "I Missed You" - Joshua Radin

Winnie Cooper and Kevin Arnold

I had the hugest crush on "Kevin Arnold" Fred Savage in real life.... when I was really really young (hooooray for the 90's kids!!!) He was my ideal boy then. hahaha. I breathed this show during my years of swooning. I have the DVD's given by my friend in Hawaii too.

To reminisce here are random quotes from my favorite "The Wonder Years":

"All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. we dance to a song of heartbreak and hope.... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us."

“Growing up is never easy. You hold on to things that were. You wonder what's to come. But that night, I think we knew it was time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be. Other days. New days. Days to come. The thing is, we didn't have to hate each other for getting older. We just had to forgive ourselves... for growing up.”

“I guess sometimes the ground can shift between your feet. Sometimes your footing slips. You stumble. And sometimes you grab what's close to you and hold on as tight as you can.”

“Over the course of the average lifetime
you meet a lot of people. Some of them
stick with you through thick and thin.
Some weave their way through your life
and disappear forever. But once in a
while someone comes along who earns a
permanent place in your heart”

“Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers; the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul.” 

“Change is never easy. You fight to hold on. You fight to let go.” 

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Thursday, August 11, 2011

Pangarap Ko Noon

Music: Joshua Radin (shuffled)

to live a dream for a day is better than not living it at all

When I was a tad bit younger, I wanted to be a lot of “somebody”.  I wanted to be a scientist, a film maker & writer, an architect, a musician, a radio jock, a composer, a visual artist (comics, special effects etc.), a photographer, a national badminton player heck, even a hiphop dancer.

All that I wanted to become revolved much around the arts and a little bit of sports and science. I wanted to be a scientist because of Doogie Howser M.D. haha my sister and I used to watch it way back when. He was really cute and the stories were awesome. I do not remember much about it because I was way too young for it. I asked mom to buy me a test tube set (the real ones) and every material there is for a laboratory. She managed to compensate me with a Barbie doll telling me that the things I wanted were dangerous hahaha. Then I wanted to become a film maker & writer, yes you may have guessed it it’s because of another TV Show this time, The Wonder Years. I was so hooked on this show that I had to struggle for a tv viewing spot and battle with my grandma with her Esperanza (yes, that Judy Ann Santos teleserye). I had this huge crush with Fred Savage, that boyish smile and eyebrows when he gets this sarcastic look I just loved him from the moment I saw him hahaha. Yes he was my first ever celebrity crush when I was in my early elementary years (not far from the day when the butterfly cut blonde hair boys like Leo, Nick and Devon took over).  I wanted to write the same stories like that of the Wonder Years.

Then I grew a little older, I was pushed to draw for my own homework. I did not have anyone to help me with it. Everyone was busy, my older siblings were in High School, and mom was working in another country since I was a year old. So I had to do things on my own. To cope, I started scribbling until the time I reached the ease in drawing certain images. I was fond of cartoons and I would put up my drawings on my walls. My father (when I was vacationing in Manila) uttered “we may have an architect in the family” out of wanting to prove that I will be one someday (there’s angst there deep beneath the I WILL BE ONE SOMEDAY – but that’s a different story), I took an entrance test in the number 1 state university in our province and I passed top 15 of all examinees in the region (hooarraaah not that I wanted to boast or anything =p).

Time passed and I was exposed to so many things in high school, different kinds of music and the arts. I got hooked into sports (badminton) and even reached the national games (Palarong Pambasa) – again that’s another story haha. I danced as well in class but did not pursue it as I left it to my friends because I did not want to perform in front of a huge crowd (yes, thats the hip-hop dancer dream).

The list of these events goes on but I am not a radio jock, neither a film maker, nor visual artist, nor architect, nor dancer, nor musician nor a part of national team. But I have become a little bit of everything. I live the dream of becoming a radio jock when friends are in need of songs to listen to, I played in the national games, I handle the magazine publication in the office (visual/writer whatnot), I handle the video presentation in our department (coz no one would take a shot at it hahaha), musician in the confines of my room and the bathroom (because that’s how far I can take this so called bathroom talent hahaha) and photographer in my own little world.

What I am driving at here is that in life, we want to be a lot of somebody from the day we started imagining things when we were kids up until this very moment. I may have taken a different route in reaching my dreams, but still I am contented with what I have achieved in my years of existence. We can be whoever we want to be if we take a shot at it right? We can do anything we want if we put our hearts into it. No one has the right to tell you, you are not this and that because they do not know your capabilities.

Be whoever you want to be, live out your fantasies. You may have taken the road less traveled by in this life adventure, but all road leads to our final destination. It is how we take each curves, turns, highways, cross-roads, never solely on who would lead you there.  

Living your dream for a day is better than not living it at all.

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Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The Space Between…..

Music: Matthew Perryman Jones (shuffled)

i love this picture of me taken by a 9 year old boy named Julio (vampires, zombies, and whatnot) even if I look like the best dork in town. haha

I haven’t written for sometime now, it feels like ages even if it was just a month or so. Full length stories or thoughts don’t come easy really. But things start from a single thought and you play around it to create the so called body. I have been back and forth with so many things that I tend to forget to enjoy the simple things in life.

A few days ago, I was having dinner with a friend after a long day at work. We would actually just rant about things that had happened, but this time it was different. I wanted to enjoy the food (luckily I love the music played in the background at the resto) so I asked for a quiet time. Rarely that it would happen and it felt good. Everything has been in fast forward the past few months. It seemed like I was in this roller coaster ride, only there were no stops. Unlimited rides so to speak. I needed to have a break from it all and what better way to do it? Eat silently with good music on.

The space between our daily undertakings is important. People tend to say they are busy, but they never really do realize that they are actually busy thinking they are busy. We are given little moments in life to enjoy, take a breather and chill.  But only a few realize it, and I am one of the many who only realizes it once in a blue moon.  Balance in everything is key, I am not a master of this balancing act but I am trying – as hard as it is, my God I am trying.

I love these lines from Dave Matthews Band:

“The space between the tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The space between the wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain”

-          Dave Matthews Band

Everything may be in fast forward in your life, but as your life soundtrack plays, there is always an option to press pause, stop or even rewind then play again. Choice. 

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